Day 117: Considering my options
I am a reality tv junkie. I don’t know what it is about it but I just love it. I like the reality tv shows where they follow a group of people (The Kardashians for example) but I especially love the reality tv competition shows. I am not so much a fan of America’s Got Talent or Dancing With The Stars. I do love the food shows….Cupcake Wars, Chopped, Masterchef, etc. I also love makeover shows….Extreme Makeover: Home Edition and Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition. I especially L.O.V.E The Bachelor and Bachelorette!!
I also really like Biggest Loser! I love seeing their change. I love seeing how hard they work. I love seeing that they struggle even when they have someone telling them what to do and what to eat. In the past I would watch it while I ate dinner. I know! Total contradiction, right!? Well that was when I was one of two ways—-#1 working my butt off every day at the gym or #2 in the “its okay if I eat like crap….” or “its okay if I miss the gym…” …”because I am going to get pregnant mode.”
Well today when I started watching the new season (by the way,if you haven’t seen episode #1 watch! it just started last night….you aren’t too late) it was different. I was really touched. Touched? Is that the right word? Inspired? Whatever the word is….I related. I related a little too much. These participants are only 15-20 lbs. heavy than me. WHAT!? Do I look like these contestants? Maybe. Maybe not. But the scale doesn’t lie. I am right up there with them. How did that happen?! OIY!
I mean these people were falling off the treadmills and the skinny bitch machine. They were vomiting. Now I haven’t ever fallen off a machine (I have tripped over a step during step class though) and I haven’t thrown up while working out, but I have stopped running. I have felt like I was going to toss my cookies. I didn’t have Jillian in my face. (I would love that though!) Secretively I wish I was on this show. I wish I was with these contestants burning the calories and getting back in my
fat skinny pants.
So I am considering my options.
Complain and play the woe is me game OR get my butt in gear and work my arse off.
Hum…..the second one sounds the best to me.
I have been eating right and exercising for the last 4 days. Today is day #5. I am going to a nutritionist (Thanks Girls Gone Sporty!) and working out. I AM going to do this. I will not look like The Biggest Loser contestants any more…not in my size or my scale weight.
Here is my favorite quote from episode #1:
Pam: “I can’t breathe”
Jillian: “Do you want to breathe? Then do what I tell you to and one day you will be able to.”