Day 117: Considering my options

I am a reality tv junkie.  I don’t know what it is about it but I just love it.  I like the reality tv shows where they follow a group of people (The Kardashians for example) but I especially love the reality tv competition shows.  I am not so much a fan of America’s Got Talent or Dancing With The Stars.  I do love the food shows….Cupcake Wars, Chopped, Masterchef, etc.  I also love makeover shows….Extreme Makeover: Home Edition and Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition.  I especially L.O.V.E The Bachelor and Bachelorette!!

I also really like Biggest Loser! I love seeing their change.  I love seeing how hard they work.  I love seeing that they struggle even when they have someone telling them what to do and what to eat.  In the past I would watch it while I ate dinner.  I know!  Total contradiction, right!?  Well that was when I was one of two ways—-#1 working my butt off every day at the gym  or #2 in the “its okay if I eat like crap….” or “its okay if I miss the gym…” …”because I am going to get pregnant mode.”

Well today when I started watching the new season (by the way,if you haven’t seen episode #1 watch!  it just started last night….you aren’t too late) it was different.  I was really touched.  Touched?  Is that the right word?  Inspired?  Whatever the word is….I related.  I related a little too much.  These participants are only 15-20 lbs. heavy than me.  WHAT!?  Do I look like these contestants?  Maybe.  Maybe not.  But the scale doesn’t lie.  I am right up there with them.  How did that happen?!  OIY!

I mean these people were falling off the treadmills and the skinny bitch machine.  They were vomiting.  Now I haven’t ever fallen off a machine (I have tripped over a step during step class though) and I haven’t thrown up while working out, but I have stopped running.  I have felt like I was going to toss my cookies.  I didn’t have Jillian in my face.  (I would love that though!)  Secretively I wish I was on this show.  I wish I was with these contestants burning the calories and getting back in my fat skinny pants.

So I am considering my options.
Complain and play the woe is me game OR get my butt in gear and work my arse off.

Hum…..the second one sounds the best to me.

I have been eating right and exercising for the last 4 days.  Today is day #5.  I am going to a nutritionist (Thanks Girls Gone Sporty!) and working out.  I AM going to do this.  I will not look like The Biggest Loser contestants any more…not in my size or my scale weight.

Here is my favorite quote from episode #1:
Pam:  “I can’t breathe”
Jillian:  “Do you want to breathe?  Then do what I tell you to and one day you will be able to.”