Day 132: There I Stood…

It isn’t news when I tell you all that my
New Year’s resolution is to
lose weight.
I talk about weight loss as much as I do my child.

Before I got pregnant I lost
a lot of weight and was actually looking
quite good…if I do say so myself.

Then I got into the habit of “It’s
okay if I don’t workout; I am going to
get pregnant” and “It is okay if I eat
like a pig; I am going to get pregnant.”

Well, 40 lbs. and 18 months later, I finally
got pregnant.

At my first doctor’s appointment I stepped
on the scale.  There I stood….looking at the
highest weight I had ever seen in my life.
And this was the beginning of my pregnancy.
While in my appointment I asked the
doctor how I could lose weight during
my pregnancy.  Let’s just say he wasn’t
too thrilled about me asking that.

9 months later I had Beckham.  I weighed in
WAY above where I ever imagined I could be.

I remember saying, “If I ever get above 200
lbs. I will have a mental breakdown.”

I didn’t.

After Beckham was born the first 15 lbs.
melted off.  It was the best diet ever!  I wanted
to lose weight and start looking good again.
I had high hopes that breastfeeding would
do that for me.

It didn’t.

I started to diet but as soon as I
did my milk supply slowed down.
Formula is freakin’ expensive so I decided
to hold off on losing weight so I could
nurse longer.

But, no matter what I did, dieting or not,
my milk supply tapered off.  Now, I was unable
to nurse AND I wasn’t losing weight.
Talk about a lose/lose.

New’s Years came around and I decided that
my resolution would be to lose
50 lbs!
In fact, I told my husband (and the Lord)
that I wasn’t having another baby until I
was 50 lbs. lighter because there was
no way in hell I was ever getting
back to this weight again.

That is when I received a grant from
Girls Gone Sporty to get my
butt in shape…literally!

On January 2nd I was in my nutritionist‘s
office getting the low down on how I
was going to get my pre-baby, no…
my pre-pre-baby body back.

Since then I have been eating right
and working my booty off at the gym.

I am proud to say….
I have lost 23 lbs. since January 2nd!

It isn’t easy.  In fact sometimes it is quite hard.
I love eating out with my hubby.  I love dessert.
I love lounging on the couch at night with my hubby.
But I have put all the aside so I could
become healthy and more importantly,
HAPPY!