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HCG Follow Up

Okay. So I haven’t blogged in a long time because I have been to bummed to report that my body hates me. After I finished the HCG diet I was 15 lbs. smaller. The first day off I ate healthy and gained 7 lbs!! The second day I ate even healthier and gained 8 lbs!! Both days I worked and got a good 800 calorie burn session. So why does my body hate me so much!?

For most people I think they can just shrug their shoulders and say “I guess that my body is just reverting back to it’s healthy weight.” I am not that way though. This last roller coaster has really been hard on me. It is yet ANOTHER failure to add to my list of weight flops. At this point I feel desperate to lose weight. I am not happy at this weight. I am not okay with how my body looks and how I feel in this skin. I am discouraged that I can work out and eat healthy and gain 15 lbs. in two days and a total of almost 25 lbs. in almost 4 months.

At this point I am all but really to be admitted to the loony bin. I am seriously going to fill out my Biggest Loser application today….I know some people may be thinking “You aren’t big. You don’t need to be on the Biggest Loser.” but really I have a good 50 lbs. to lose and it is obvious that nothing I am doing is working. I would LOVE to spend days and days on end from sun up to sun down working out, sweaty, eating healthy, and learning how to keep it off. Honestly I would kill to be on that show…not so much for the show part but for the weight loss part. Don’t you think American needs to see normal sized people lose the weight they have struggled with for years? That would be just as good as an obese person who loses weight. Okay…so the show is a far fetched idea but perhaps some college kid who is majoring in health and fitness needs a subject who they can train for their senior project. I could be a great before and after picture for anyone…They would get an A for sure.

Bottom line is…I don’t know how to lose weight and keep it off. I am willing to do anything someone suggests, encourages, or believes in. At this point I am totally distraught about my weight and don’t know what the next step is.

One thing I am totally positive about is, the next step is not into another clothing store. I went to the mall last night to attempt to find a cute dress. Trying on item after item and not seeing it fit this fat mold is not conducive to the ol’ self esteem. However, shoes could be a different story!

Day 14

Don’t hate me! I forgot to weigh in. I woke up jumped in the shower, headed off to work with a big glass of water in my belly, and then remembered. Maybe there will be a big loss or something for Day 15. I could only wish.

For lunch and dinner I had a steak cooked in balsamic vinegar, a tomato, an orange, and a piece of melba toast. I can’t get enough oranges! First it was apples and tomatos and now I will add oranges to the list. :)

At 7:00 I headed to the gym for a turbo kickbox class. Note to self: don’t wear pants…only capris or shorts. It was really hot in there. I thought I would pass out!

Total weight lost since day 1: 12 lbs. (Hopefully it has stayed at 12 lbs.)

Day 13

Day 13–weight: 167 lbs.

The morning of Day 13 I was so excited to get up. Hitting that 10 lbs. mark really was a motivation. I woke up and heading to the gym. One turbo kickbox class and 700 calories burned later, I came home and stepped on the scale. DOWN 2 LBS! More motivation!

For lunch I had shrimp, an apple, tomato, and melba toast. For dinner it was steak in balsamic vinegar (YUM!), tomato, apple, and melba toast. You know, with as easy as this diet has been, it isn’t staying too easy right now. I have the monthly cravings. Chocolate, breads, ice cream, salty crunchy food, and peanut butter. One day I will eat those again…not all in one day…and I will remember how bad I wanted these and really enjoy them.

Total weight lost since day 1: 12 lbs.

Day 12

Day 12–Weight: 169 lbs.

That’s right ladies and gentlemen! I hit the 10 lbs. mark! Best feeling in the world. If I can make it 10 I can make it 20. I don’t want to say 20 lbs. is my goal though. I don’t want to have a goal. My thought is I will keep going until I hit a plateu. No sense in stopping if my body is screaming “You go girl! Keep losing!”

The morning of Day 12 I got up and ran. Told you I would :) I ran 1.5 miles and was absolutly pooped. Crazy right? I think it was a mixture of not running since the 5K (May 11th), not working out since I quit P90X, and the warm weather. However, if I was pooped after a short run I need to keep exercising to get my endurance back.

For both lunch and dinner I had the yummy fish from Day 11, melba toast, and an apple. My veggies were cucumbers for lunch and a tomato for dinner. Tomorrow I am going grocerey shopping so I will be able to get some other things to mix it up a bit more. I am kind of excited about eatting my lunch and dinner meals…excitment for 250 calories…interesting right!?

Total weight lost since day 1: 10 lbs.

Day 11--Thou Shalt Not Cheat

Day 11–weight: 170 lbs.

DON’T HATE ME! I know! I know! I cheated! That is what I get for cheating…okay REALLY cheating. I learned my lesson ok!? I will never cheat like that again!

For lunch I had shrimp, a tomato, melba toast, and an apple…not rotten! For dinner I had some delicious orange roughy with a lemon galic rub, cucumbers, melba toast and another not rotten apple. I must have had a bad group from the store before. At dinner I also had a Caffeine Free Diet A&W. Hum. Not what I imagined. Buying it I could feel the bubbles running down my throat causing a little burn and I could taste the sweetness of rootbeer on my tongue. Hum. It wasn’t quite like that. The bubbles were almost non-exsistent and the tast was kind of blah. Oh how I miss my Diet Dr. Pepper!

I know I said I would go running but after putting in an 11 hour day at work and getting my nails done I was ready to sit at home with my husband. Tomorrow morning! I will go tomorrow morning!

Total weight lost since Day 1: 9 lbs.

Day 10

Day 10–weight: 169.4 lbs.

Hey! That little ice cream did nothing! In fact maybe it helped ;) Nah! Think how much more I could have lost if I didn’t celebrate/ fulfill my cravings. Not to shabby though!

Today was another toughie…darn those 4 days of earn month. I think another reason why it was tough is because it was a stay at home lazy day. I made breakfast (eggs in a nest) and dinner (Beef Stroganoff Hamburger Helper) for Adam. This made me be around food outside of my limits….temptation! I was good until I picked up the box of Wheat Thins he had been snacking out of…I had 2 (14 calories)! Then as I was putting away the leftover dinner, I had two fork fulls of Beef Stroganoff (we’ll go with 50 calories)! Later I snuck in 2 little caramels (80 calories), 1 tootise roll (6 calories), and an otter pop (25 calories). I ate an additional 175 calories…about…HOLY COW! What a pig!! That is almost a third meal! This was not in celebration of losing weight…it was because of cravings and my lack of control. Hey! I am not lying to myself.

For lunch I had steak, mushrooms, melba toast, and an apple. For dinner I had steak, green peppers, melba toast, and an apple.

My goal for tomorrow…run! I am sure with an additional 175 calories I will gain something.

Total weight loss since day 1: 9.6 lbs

Day 9--Half Way Mark

Day 9–weight: 170.6 lbs.

I know it isn’t much but a little is something. Maybe something big is coming after this “a little here, a little there.” Day 9 was a great day! Adam and I started it off by going to the temple. Then, we headed to the Orem Summerfest. Just as we got there the wind picked up a little and literally within two minutes it was tornado weather. The blowing wind sent napkins flying all over. The rain was coming down it buckets. Everyone was soaked. In fact it came so quickly there was no time to get to the car without being soaked. So I sat down and ate my packed lunch: shrimp, a tomato (of course), melba toast, and an apple. Would it surprise you that I took about 5 bites into the apple before…you guessed it…rotten. WHAT THE HECK! Maybe it is a sign I shouldn’t eat apples.

When the rain wasn’t letting up, we went to Adam’s mother’s house to say hi. I love a good visit to family. Finally, the rain stopped and we ran home so I could pack dinner. Then it was back to Summerfest…since we were only there about 2 minutes. For dinner I had a tomato, strawberries, melba toast, and 2 kabobs…one chicken and one steak. Because if I packed meat it would be bad by the time I went to eat it, I bought these at a little tent. All they were was meat on a steak put on grill with grapefruit juice squeezed on the top. DELICIOUS! I know I am not suppose to mix meats but I couldn’t have one with out the other.

After a long night of watching Adam eat Hawaiian food and drink a Texas Twister and walking by the fried oreos and twinkies, scones, Navajo tacos, ice cream, etc. I had major cravings. MAJOR! I kept saying to Adam, “If you want to try a fried oreo I will take a bite,” and “If you want to get a Navajo taco I might share it with you.” Unfortunately, or fortunately I should say. the Texas Twister didn’t sit well with him. HOWEVER, after leaving Summerfest we stopped by McDonald’s and I finally caved and had a small vanilla ice cream cone. You see, McDonald’s says a 3.5 oz. cone is 150 calories but I am pretty sure, based on my Dairy Queen background, that was not 3.5 oz. of ice cream. So say I had 100 extra calories today….I got more exercise than I normally do by walking around the Summerfest AND I missed out on my apple (about 80 calories). Also I needed to celebrate making it half way through this diet. Also I just received a “gift” this month so I am a little extra sugar crave-y. So to conclude my justification, I think I came out about even. I guess the scale will show what the damage was on Day 10, right!?

Total weight loss since day 1: 8.4 lbs.

Day 8--Measurements are in!!

Day 8–weight 171 lbs.

This last little bit I could hardly wait for this day to arrive. I wanted to badly to measure to see my progress but I like that I waited and got a big surprise. To see the first day’s measurements go here. HERE THEY ARE!! Chest: 39″ (-1″) Waist: 32 3/4″ (-2 1/4″) Hips: 43″ (-1 1/4″) Thigh: 22 1/4″ (-3/4″) Calf: 15 1/2″ (-1″) and Bicep: 12 1/2″ (-3/4″) Grand total of inches lost: 7″ YEE HAW! I couldn’t believe it! What motivation to keep going!! Already I have put back on pants that I haven;t been able to wear since returning from our honeymoon. If that isn’t motivation I don’t know what is!!

Today was actually kind of tough. I went to my wedding photographers wedding reception. There was cake, treats, candy, chocolate dipped pretzels, Crush, cotton candy, and popcorn. It was so hard to just see it and not smell, touch, or taste it. I didn’t think food controlled my life so much but I think it kind of does. Nevertheless…I did not partake of the forbidden food. Although, it was not easy seeing Adam eat whatever he wanted. UGG! I wish that was me!

Good news though! The lady who I brought the drops through told me I don’t have to eat the same thing for dinner as I had for lunch! So for lunch I had chicken, a tomato, and melba toast….again a rotten apple….I don’t know why that keeps happening to me but it sure bums me out because I get so excited to eat it. For dinner I had shrimp (another food that is weird not dipped in anything), a tomato, melba toast, and strawberries. I know, I know….I need to mix the veggies up…I bought cucumbers tonight….I just love those yummy tomatoes!

Total weight lost since day 1: 8 lbs.

Day 7

Day 7–weight: 171.6 lbs.

I know that only.4 lbs. isn’t too much to hoot and holler about but it is! See normally I would just be relived that I didn’t gain. But on Day 7 I was really excited that I continued to go down….honestly I would be excited to be .1 lbs. down. A little is something and something is the motivation I need to stick with a diet.

For lunch I had chicken, a tomato (love the tomatoes…i just eat them like an apple), an apple, and melba toast. Dinner was a tomato, an apple, and melba toast. I missed my protein because we went to the Kelly Clarkson concert. I didn’t know the concert was last night or I would have had the meat ready when Adam got home to take me. (Great concert by the way…even if it was a little wet.) You know…I thought the concert would be hard to say no to things but a pretzel, pizza, or hot dog didn’t sound too great. The kettle corn did though but I just put on my horse blinders and walked on by. I even got a compliment tonight for eatting healthy. The man even said “I really enjoyed you just eatting that tomato like an apple. Now that is the real way to eat one!” ha ha

Total weight loss since day 1: 7.4 lbs.

**I am taking measurements on Day 8 so come back Saturday for the first weeks results!**

Day 6

Day 6–weight: 172 lbs.

When I stepped on the scale the morning of Day 6 and saw 172 lbs. I literally laughed out loud. I couldn’t believe it! After the previous day and being down only .8 lbs (not complaining…. .8 lbs is better than nothing) I thought it was amazing to be down 3 WHOLE POUNDS! What a great way to start the day off.

For my meals today I needed to “clean up” something in the fridge. I had some steak and lobster leftover from the other days…even though the info says to eat the same meal for lunch and dinner. Since I didn’t have enough to have for both lunch and dinner and didn’t want them to go to waste and decided to eat them anyway. Lunch was steak, melba toast, and cauliflower. I was really bummed to find out my apple was rotten when I cut it open. So since I was at work, no fruit :( For dinner I had melba toast, a tomato, and an apple. I was at dance and forgot to put my lobster in the fridge so I was nervous to eat it since it had been out about 3 1/2 hours. I was lucky to even remember to eat…dance keeps my mind off food. I ate dinner at 8:00 pm. I know that the information says to try to not eat after 7:00 pm but missing Day 5′s dinner made me a little dizzy the next morning so I ate anyway. Summary…I missed food, again, mixed, and ate after 7 pm. It will be interested to see how it affects my Day 7 weight.

Total weight lost since Day 1: 7 lbs.